I came back home thinking that I would feel much more joy in whatever I would do but then Sunday came and went, and I feel that I did'nt do enough for my Dad's birthday. I did'nt express my gratitude to the fullest, failed to show care and concern, and furthermore, failed to make his special day special.

Today has come but has not gone and my gramma has been checked into the ICU. WTH. I failed to spend enough time with her, my mom is plunging into the depths of worry and depression, and I myself worry for her. I hate to say this but an elderly woman at the age of 83 cannot handle the hospital again. In plain english, she may not have much time anymore. As her only grandchild, I have foolishly failed to care for her and make her happy and it is true that in death, one would come to realize all the beauty in life.

I have been foolish, accept it. My life stinks, live it. I have taken all the wonderful things for granted, embrace it. I need to change, forget all the shit that happened this year and live life to the fullest.

DO IT

We are not born once, but again and again.