I came back home thinking that I would feel much more joy in whatever I would do but then Sunday came and went, and I feel that I did'nt do enough for my Dad's birthday. I did'nt express my gratitude to the fullest, failed to show care and concern, and furthermore, failed to make his special day special. Today has come but has not gone and my gramma has been checked into the ICU. WTH. I failed to spend enough time with her, my mom is plunging into the depths of worry and depression, and I myself worry for her. I hate to say this but an elderly woman at the age of 83 cannot handle the hospital again. In plain english, she may not have much time anymore. As her only grandchild, I have foolishly failed to care for her and make her happy and it is true that in death, one would come to realize all the beauty in life. I have been foolish, accept it. My life stinks, live it. I have taken all the wonderful things for granted, embrace it. I need to change, forget all the shit that happened this year and live life to the fullest. DO IT We are not born once, but again and again.
9:43 AM
Had a quick lunch with my folks which has not happened for a really really long time, a month or two maybe? According to some research whatever, families who fail to have a meal together everyday will end up really scattered. Which is bad. But then again, whatcha gonna do.
And so I have yet to update on my meeting up with Angie for the first time this holiday. She has failed to get a new cell phone since her previous one just died on her thus we had to make this strange arrangement whereby we meet in front of guardian at the train station. Did not really work out but anyway! We headed to vivo and I realized I stupidly wore HEELS which made walking an extremely difficult activity to carry out. i was just CRAWLING throughout the shopping trip. Ha! We did attempt to switch shoes but then we realized that the shoes totally did not match what we were dressed in AT ALL.
SWITCH.
Went for lunch and my order got screwed up which subjected me to ten more minutes of standing in my trashy cursed SHOES, trying to explain to this cashier that all I was waiting for was a three dollar refund. And get this.
After all that explaining and wincing from the three blisters that had formed on my precious feet, he just STARED at me and said, " Sorry, can you repeat?"
Sometimes I question my intellectual ability to communicate with another human being.
Lunch was a forty five minute affair and after that, I came up with this crazy idea to get a manicure and as much as Angie found the sudden idea crazy, she went along with it. Twas cool! We took half an hour to get an express manicure done and now they're looking pretty:) All in the name of fun.
So today mom and I bumped into a neighbour of ours who was expecting AGAIN. Dear me, she already has enough chilodren to create a private army. anyways my mom asked," wow you're expecting again!" My neighbour giggled ( a grown woman giggling like no hell is just not working out) and between giggles, she said," Hahaha ACCIDENT la!"
holy shit.
Oh who can tell. Save he whose heart hath tried.
1:29 PM
I can feel it. CAN YOU? Oh yes. The joy of Christmas comes in nine days:)
He made the world to be a grassy land under her wandering feet.
5:25 PM
Then got a call from Abi while stoning in Cards n such or precious thoughts or either one of these and she said that her lunch arrangement with Dode has failed as David is unable to pick her up. HA! Thus I told her she could come join me for lunch at Delifrance if she wanted and she did. Ha! So all was fun. We stepped into delifrance and chose a table, then went to order food. When I turned to head back, a strange, fairly old dude was in my seat despite having my shopping bag on the chair! Aha... I thus looked at him and he then asked if it was ok that he sat there. Was odd! Anyways, had potato gratin like I always do and she had a huge baked potato. Chat and chat and chat till I was late for tuition! It was raining and I was talking to myself on the bus, i said: RAIN YOU WILL STOP NOW.
And get this: IT DID. aha... thus I conclude that..
I AM POWER.
Nothing takes the taste of peanut butter out quite like unrequitted LOVE
6:33 PM
What happened to that bubbly insane crazy girl who spent her time cracking her friends up and unknowingly terrorizing random people? She has conveniently taken all the beautiful things in life for granted, including life itself. She forgot that time is what keeps things from happening all at once, that it is time that does not stop, that it is time that acts as the protagonist in the dramatic play of life, it is ultimately time that causes everything to evolve into something different and finally, it is time that allows us foolish mortals to reflect, realize and relent. It is not just a phase, It is a cycle that follows us for the rest of our sad lives.
2:58 PM
YOU ALL WILL MISS MY PRESENCE. :)
9:29 AM